Life has given me ample opportunities to start afresh. I have lived in many different places- geographically and socially. Village, tier 3 town, tier 2 town, metro. 2 national colleges, 5 companies in 5 different cities. My each world hardly overlapped each other.
I could start afresh every time. I could be a different person. I could change my habits, personalities, traits, friends and and enemies. The possibilities have been immense. And for a long time I enjoyed this. Moving to new worlds with little or no baggage of past. This was awesome.
But then COVID came. Now worlds have been separated not by choice but by force. Connections are broken and lost. Gossiping with friends over dinner or meeting relatives or even attending festivals and functions seem to be century old thing.
So in this situation when I got a new job opportunity, the challenge is not one-dimensional. I am losing my past connections, without creating any new ones. My world is being swallowed by a black hole. All that is around is emptiness. Emptiness/Loneliness creates a new level of anxiety and uncertainty. This impacts both my mental well being and my job performance at new place.
Now I feel switching was never easy. But new beginnings made it worthwhile. COVID has spoiled best of both worlds- old and new. I wonder how long we can last without real human connections. I am hating COVID more and more everyday.
Hope the things normalize before my professional and personal lives suffer irrecoverably. #Hope
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss-Rudyard Kipling
If, by Rudyard Kipling